Whimsy

Could not sleep and I had some pains, so I made myself some hot Cheerios and read a few more pages in Confessions of an Ugly Stepsister, my next book. But now I've turned off the light and I'm nestling back into the blankets!

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Breakthroughs

So, anyway, the speaker took her sermon to a whole new level. She started to address the question I asked of her and then said in her piece that writing this piece about the connection between advocacy (being an advocate) and spirituality had caused her to realize that one of the reasons she had run from advocacy and faith communities all of her life was because she hadn't addressed that very question. She proceeded to talk about that.

Really, really something. Quite moving. And then she went on to say that she felt advocacy was a community/collective activity, rather than a personal thing. And she tied that into how Unitarian Universalists believe so much in the idea of community action and learning together and so forth and so on.

Day 25

Okay, well, I did get a slice of pizza on the way home when I stopped at the grocery store. I think it's okay though; I don't think I'm going to slip back into that habit. I was bone tired, but boy did it help that I took iron last night.

I didn't expect to get roped into staying for the advocacy workshop after the services, but I stayed and I ended up glad that I did. Left there about 3:30pm. Headed to Wal-Mart and they had already "put back" my prescription (you really have to pick it up right after you call it in) so I waited there for a while.

So I was waiting on my Wal-Mart waiting bench, waiting to get a prescription filled. I was staring at the floor, slightly ticked that I had called it in but they had already put it back on the shelf. Prescriptions are the only reason I go into Wal-Mart-in-CT. Some woman-in-lime-green muttered "Doritos" to me. She was speaking in reference to the three Hispanic people at the counter (one customer, two workers). That was a new bullshit slur to me. So, I spoke up very loudly and said, "You like Doritos? You know I always hated Doritos until I tried Cool Ranch. Do you like Cool Ranch?" And lime green woman edged away from me on the bench as everyone stared. I went back to staring at the floor.

Drove home, stopped to get the slice of pizza and some shredded cheddar. Pulled into the driveway and realized that I needed to get cat food. Back out and went to Stop & Shop.

As I was approaching and about to reach for my shopping cart, I saw a kind-faced man exit the store. Tall. 40ish. Short hair, more salt than pepper (which I like). Oh my gosh handsome - not magazine-handsome, but just a wonderfully kind face, the kind of face you could look at for years and not get tired of. I quickly looked away and sighed: "well, his wife is lucky" I thought.

I quickly stole another glance. I saw him look away just as furtively, something I don't usually see. I get dismissed a lot, but this was different. I watched him walk off (with no ring) & only then did I see his prosthetic leg.

Wonder if he thought I'd dismissed him for that. *wistful* That has made me quite sad. I really hope to run into him again. I shouldn't have immediately assumed that there was no possible way he'd be interested in me. If I'd not assumed that, I might have made eye contact with him. I think that would have been really nice. And I feel wretched to think that the guy may have assumed I dismissed him because of his left when I never even saw it.

I briefly entertained the thought of hanging out at Stop & Shop permanently until I see him again.

Anyway, then I felt worse because here the universe sent me a spark and I blew it.

Then I came home a slept for three hours. Got up and cooked a very thin top round steak (only $2!) with a red onion. I sliced it into strips and put them into two tortillas with the onions, cheddar and some sour cream. 'Twas great.

And here I am.